A Life’s Works Worth

Living Broken Again BLOG by Susan Vaughan Shumake

April 19, 2022

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Somehow, 9 years later, after God’s re-direction, I am still searching for New Direction for God’s Divine Path of Life, for my life. I am always in the Making. Always in the Breaking. Always in the Re-Creating. Always Beginning Again. Always LIVING BROKEN AGAIN.

Never actually reaching a Destination of Accomplishment because I am forever, Beginning Again. Over and over and over again, Living Broken Again. Tomorrow, is a New Beginning, again.

One would think, in 9 years of Tomorrows, I would have done something? Been somewhere? Been someone? Have something to show for Living Life at all? Have something to say? But no, not me, not yet. Not today.

Always Beginning Again, yet never going anywhere. Never seeing any substance from my living life at all? From my work at all? Where there is nothing to show at the end of almost a decade? At the end of almost 3 decades?

You ask, why am I impatient? Because I have been here before, in the Breaking, in the Waiting, in the Becoming. What is my Life worth? What is my Life work? What is my Life work worth?

What work? What worth? There is no work to have worth.

Maybe 9 years from today, I’ll have something to say?

Because I am Beginning Again.