Brokenness.
Living Broken Again BLOG By Susan Vaughan Shumake
01/19/2023
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Brokenness is at the door Reeling spinning on the floor Memories crashing over me Jesus Jesus rescue me Waves of memories in my head Screaming crying on my bed Trapped in the trauma of this place Please rescue me from hell’s embrace Visions of my hope all lost Swept away at any cost Satan’s attack to stop my voice Shattered by my loss of choice Saved by a surgeon’s hand Then locked away in Covid land Rehab all with masks and alarms Strapped to my bed alone in arms No one to visit for 14 days Covid restrictions all in play You alone were with me there My body crushed needing repair Lost again in helpless land How could this happen all again I guess I haven’t learned enough I guess I haven’t learned to trust I guess I am not ready to teach I guess I am too broken to lead I guess my healing was not enough I guess my hope was just too much I guess I have too much to learn I guess I need more flesh to burn A year of pain was not enough Still in this place of Brokenness No joy, no hope, no strength to climb Too broken to make it through this time Please rescue me from this broken place You are my only saving Grace You alone have seen my pain Over, and over, and over again. Another winter’s cold has come Please keep me through my winter’s storm Help me through this pain I’m in Give me grace to rise again Lost my place of worth in him Lost our love through thick and thin Lost my value as a wife Lost my voice through hopeless strife Lost my favor with our kids Left abandoned after this Stuck inside a broken frame Lost our romance once again There is no way that I can win As he looks at me and can’t stand it Nothing to do but work for grace No shame can bring me to this place I have lost my Battle cry Broken body the reason why Lost what he thought he once had Over, and over, and over again He can’t give me a compliment He doesn’t see me as Heaven sent He doesn’t look at me anymore He never says I’m beautiful My heart is crushed with rejection Over, and over, and over again There’s nothing I can do to change my face Nothing to do to change my place My heart is hurt in hopelessness No beauty in my Brokenness My heart, my life is on my knees Heal our broken marriage please I am lost and all alone Abandoned by the one I love Rejected in my Brokenness Restore us to our former place
