9. THE BLESSING OF THE BROKEN – THE BROKENNESS: Our Emotional, Physical & Spiritual CONDITION

THE BLESSING OF THE BROKEN Episode 9

THE BROKENNESS: Our Emotional, Physical & Spiritual CONDITION



Broken Lights

Shining for your Glory
Broken along the way
Screaming here without a Voice
Still nothing there to say

Abandoned on the Journey
I’ve nothing left to give
Struggling to stand alone
My strength is all to Live

Left without the courage
I’ve nowhere else to go
Here without a reason
Just stopped within the show

Trapped between two Kingdoms
I’ve lost before the fights
Crushed within their fortresses 
I’m left with Broken Lights

Here with shattered Vision
My shining light cut dim 
Alone and Living Broken
God help me Shine again

Running for your Glory
Though I cannot run
God please finish the Story
I know that I’m not done.

THE BLESSING OF THE BROKEN Episode 9

THE BROKENNESS - Our Emotional, Physical & Spiritual CONDITION

When we are Living Broken, Brokenness is all we know. We live, breathe, and Believe the Brokenness. When we are trapped in that place of Trauma, we can see nothing beyond it. We can only see our circumstances from a Physical perspective, not from a Spiritual one. We battle in our Minds. We battle in our Bodies. But our real battle is a Spiritual Battle. We are Battling Brokenness.

We listen to the lies of the Enemy, and we agree with them. We speak them to ourselves over, and over, again. We repeat them to ourselves in the Darkness of our Minds, and we know them as our own Truth. I Hate myself. I don’t fit in. I am The Broken One.

We remember the Shame of our abuse, or the pain of our past, and we Believe it has tainted us, it has stained us, that we are different. We are isolated and alone. We are Wounded Warriors crushed by the Crises. We are Faithful Followers of Christ, and yet we are Broken, as Believers. We are Broken by the Battle.

We try harder than anyone else with our Performance, or Perfectionism, to cover up our own disdain, our own Self-Hatred. But the Brokenness of our Heart, and the pain of that place of Rejection, forces us to run a race for Acceptance and for Love, that never stops, and never wins. We are then Guilty of failing to Perform, and we run that race over again, and again.

Our own Thoughts condemn us. We can’t let anyone close enough to our Heart, to know the truth about ourselves, our own insecurities about who we are. We don’t belong with them, The Beautiful Ones, the others who have it all together because we are too Broken, and too Ashamed of our Brokenness. I’ve been Abused. I’ve been Divorced. I’ve lost my Job. I’m a Failure. I can’t Cope. And we condemn ourselves.

We hide in the darkness, within our own Brokenness. We walk around with an invisible Scarlet Letter on our forehead. The letter S for Shame, for Sin. For Set-Aside. For Set-Apart. For Stupid. For Susan.

We say in our Hearts that we CAN love, but maybe we can’t. Maybe we are too Broken. Maybe we are too hurt. We listen to the Unloving Spirit that whispers in our ear, in our thoughts, in our minds, and says, “You will never be loved.” “God doesn’t love you.” “Your father didn’t love you.” “Your husband didn’t love you.” So, you don’t Love yourself.

You hear it, that Self-Accusation, that Self-Condemnation, that Self-Rejection, and you Believe it, and you Agree with it. And you reject LOVE, because you are too Broken. Every time someone comes close enough to your Heart to hurt it, you reject Love. You reject the person. You reject yourself, you reject God, and you say I am Unworthy of Love. You expect it, and you reject it.

We have become Bitter within our own Hearts, and we Live it, and Breathe it, and Seethe it. We Hate the one who hurt us. We Hate God for not protecting us. We Hate ourselves for allowing it.

We believe The Brokenness, and we have Anger, and Rage, ourselves now, just like the one who raged against us. The Root of Bitterness is a fruit of Unforgiveness. A Root of Bitterness defiles many. Now, we ourselves are the ones being defiled. Now, we battle Bitterness in our own Hearts. Now, we battle Bitterness in our own bodies, as a fruit of Cancer.

We listen to the Fear in our thoughts, and we believe whatever it tells us, and we are Afraid. We listen to the Fear, and it controls us. We listen to the Fear, and it holds us. We listen to the Fear, and we are terrified of it. And yet, we listen and Believe it.

We have not understood the Power we have given to it that keeps us in Bondage to Fear. And now our bodies are wrecked with Dis-Ease and Disease, because Fear has torment. Every Fearful thought we feel. Every Fearful thought we think. We now manifest as Physical symptoms; as High Blood pressure, as Panic Attacks, as Heart Palpitations, as Heart Attacks. We are living in constant Crisis, and in total Trauma, and we are in continual Fear, Anxiety, and Stress.

We have not understood why we are Sick. We have not understood why this is happening to us again, and to nobody else. Why is our Immune System not working? Why are we continuously Living Broken, battling Auto-immune Disease, and not recovering Physically, or Emotionally from them? There is a Spiritual Issue of the Heart at play, keeping us bound to Battling Brokenness every day.

We have not understood the Spiritual Reality of what we have Believed in our Hearts, or of what we are actually Spiritually bearing, and reaping, causing our own Physical bodies to not work properly, or to not Heal. We have not understood, that we are Spiritually reaping Sickness and Disease, within our Physical Bodies, as we Battle Brokenness. We are actually reaping the consequences of the Curse. We are reaping The Blessing of The Broken, as a Spiritual Inheritance.

Behold, the Lord’s hand is not shortened that it cannot Save; But your iniquities have separated you from your God. Sin separates us from God.

Isaiah 59:1-4  NKJV

Separated from God

59 Behold, the Lord’s hand is not shortened, 
That it cannot save; 
Nor His ear heavy, 
That it cannot hear.

2 But your iniquities have separated you from your God; 
And your sins have hidden His face from you, 
So that He will not hear.

3 For your hands are defiled with [a]blood, 
And your fingers with iniquity; 
Your lips have spoken lies,
 Your tongue has muttered perversity.

4 No one calls for justice, 
Nor does any plead for truth. 
They trust in empty words and speak lies; 
They conceive [b]evil and bring forth iniquity.

Isaiah 59:8-10 NKJV

8 The way of peace they have not known, 
And there is no justice in their ways; 
They have made themselves crooked paths; 
Whoever takes that way shall not know peace.

9 Therefore justice is far from us, 
Nor does righteousness overtake us; 
We look for light, but there is darkness! 
For brightness, but we walk in blackness!

10 We grope for the wall like the blind, 
And we grope as if we had no eyes; 
We stumble at noonday as at twilight; 
We are as dead men in desolate places.

       The way of peace we have not known, and there is no justice in our ways. We have made for ourselves crooked paths; therefore justice is far from us, Nor does righteousness overtake us;  We look for light, but there is Darkness! We grope for the wall like the Blind. There is only what we cannot SEE, or perceive, in front of us, and we are AS DEAD MEN IN DESOLATE PLACES. We are all Spiritually Blind.

	The consequences of Adam and Eve’s Disobedience brought with it, not only Spiritual Death, and Separation from God, but also brought with it the Curses of Generational Sin, Pain, Sickness, Disease, and with it, premature or early Death. 

	“Your Iniquities have separated you from your God.” ( Isaiah 59:2) We SEE sin separates us from God, causing His hands to be tied, causing us to be Spiritually Blind. Sin causes us to be Spiritually unable, to walk in Holiness, in Peace, or in Communion with God, separating us from God, separating us from The Blessings of the Beautiful. Now we are reaping the Consequences of these Curses of Disobedience. We have stepped outside of God’s Boundary of Obedience and are experiencing THE BLESSING OF THE BROKEN.

Proverbs 26:2 KJV

As the bird by wandering, as the swallow by flying, so the curse causeless shall not come.

Psalm 103 (NIV)

1 Praise the Lord, my soul;
all my inmost being,
praise his holy name.
2 Praise the Lord, my soul,
and forget not all his benefits—
3 who forgives all your sins
and heals all your diseases,
4 who redeems your life from the pit
and crowns you with love and compassion,
5 who satisfies your desires with good things
so that your youth is renewed like the eagle’s.
6 The Lord works righteousness
and justice for all the oppressed.
7 He made known his ways to Moses,
his deeds to the people of Israel:
8 The Lord is compassionate and gracious,
slow to anger, abounding in love.
9 He will not always accuse,
nor will he harbor his anger forever;
10 he does not treat us as our sins deserve
or repay us according to our iniquities.
11 For as high as the heavens are above the earth,
so great is his love for those who fear him;
12 as far as the east is from the west,
so far has he removed our transgressions from us.
13 As a father has compassion on his children,
so the Lord has compassion on those who fear him;
14 for he knows how we are formed,
he remembers that we are dust.
15 The life of mortals is like grass,
they flourish like a flower of the field;
16 the wind blows over it and it is gone,
and its place remembers it no more.
17 But from everlasting to everlasting
the Lord’s love is with those who fear him,
and his righteousness with their children’s children—
18 with those who keep his covenant
and remember to obey his precepts.
19 The Lord has established his throne in heaven,
and his kingdom rules over all.
20 Praise the Lord, you his angels,
you mighty ones who do his bidding,
who obey his word.
21 Praise the Lord, all his heavenly hosts,
you his servants who do his will.
22 Praise the Lord, all his works
everywhere in his dominion.
Praise the Lord, my soul.

Arise. Survive. A Thorn in My Side.

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2 Corinthians 12:5-10 NKLV

5 Of such a one I will boast; yet of myself I will not boast, except in my infirmities. 6 For though I might desire to boast, I will not be a fool; for I will speak the truth. But I refrain, lest anyone should think of me above what he sees me to be or hears from me.
7 And lest I should be exalted above measure by the abundance of the revelations, a thorn in the flesh was given to me, a messenger of Satan to [a]buffet me, lest I be exalted above measure. 8 Concerning this thing I pleaded with the Lord three times that it might depart from me. 9 And He said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me. 10 Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in needs, in persecutions, in distresses, for Christ’s sake. For when I am weak, then I am strong.”