BROKEN TO BE HEALED Episode 15 THE BEAUTIFUL ENTERING BROKENNESS: Breathing LIFE into The Broken

Broken To Be Healed   


In the deepest cold of my Winters’ storm
it was Your Loving kindness that kept me warm.
Love melted away the pain in my Heart 
and the Bitterness there from the enemy’s dart.

The Battle was raging out of my sight
as the Cancer within me was stealing my life.
An Army of Angels fought for my soul
as prayers of the Saints prayed for me to be Whole.

In the midst of my Battle Your Word came to me 
to show me You Love me, to set my heart Free.
There, in the furious flames of that place,
You rescued me by Your Mercy and Grace.

The Darkness within me was brought into Light
as Your Love wrapped around me and fought my great Fight.
My walls all came down as I chose to Forgive
and the Truth set me Free so that I might Live.

The Fear that had held me and caused me such Shame,
The Hatred, Resentment, the Anger and Blame,
were brought to the surface by Your flooding rains,
then You washed them away with my Broken Heart pains.

Your Love crushed the lies and deceit I’d Believed
as the Fire of this Trial brought me down to my knees.
In this fight against Cancer, this fight to the Death,
I began to praise You just for Life and each breath.

My eyes, they were opened. My life has great worth.
Not because of my works, but because of my Birth.
I’d lost sight of the prize I had already Won;
the Crown that I wear because of Your Son.

So the pain and Abuse of my past was revealed
that I might Forgive and my heart might be Healed.
And my God, who has Loved me since before time began,
has walked me through Brokenness, holding my hand.

Healed through Brokenness. I have been restored
by my Heavenly Father and Jesus, my Lord.
Now, in my Suffering, I can truly rejoice!
For My God has Healed me and made me His Voice!

BROKEN TO BE HEALED  Episode 15

THE BEAUTIFUL ENTERING BROKENNESS - God Breathing LIFE into The Broken 

1 Peter 3:3  

It is not fancy hair, gold jewelry, or fine clothes that should make you Beautiful. No, your beauty should come from within you- the beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, an imperishable quality which is very precious to God.

THE HEALING OF A HEART

Proverbs 4:20-27 KJV

20 My son, attend to my words; incline thine ear unto my sayings.

21 Let them not depart from thine eyes; keep them in the midst of thine heart.

22 For they are life unto those that find them, and health to all their flesh.

23 Keep thy heart with all diligence; for out of it are the issues of life.

24 Put away from thee a froward mouth, and perverse lips put far from thee.

25 Let thine eyes look right on, and let thine eyelids look straight before thee.

26 Ponder the path of thy feet, and let all thy ways be established.

27 Turn not to the right hand nor to the left: remove thy foot from evil.

       The Healing of a Heart is an intimate issue to discuss because we must first look at its’ BROKENNESS. We all have Broken places in our hearts. Broken places that are hidden hurts we harbor deep inside our Hearts. 

	We have had nowhere to go with our Brokenness, because our Brokenness scares people. Our Brokenness scares us. To feel Broken is to feel “Less than,” or Ashamed, because we are “Shattered.” There is no Safe place, when our place of security, and safety is stolen. At least this is the Lie we Believe. 

	We hide the hurt of our Heart. We paint the pain with Performance, or we mask it with Material things. We bury the Brokenness of our hearts. If we are truthful with ourselves, we know WHERE they are, and WHY they are, and yet we continue on AS we are. Because it is WHO we are.

	We are who we are, because of the Brokenness of our Hearts. We are Fighters. We are Strong. We are Survivors of multiple Seasons of Suffering. Yet, we are sick at heart. We are “The Brokenhearted.” Broken Relationship brings Broken hearts. 

	I write this because I was “Broken to be Healed.” This is my Testimony, over, and over, again. This is the Testimony of the Healing of my Broken Heart. As I was battling Cancer, I found there was a deeper, more vicious Enemy, invisibly attacking from within, who was Stealing, Killing, and Destroying my life.
 
	There were things that had to happen before my Heart could heal, before my Body could heal. There was a Spiritual Enemy who needed to be revealed. There were Broken relationships that needed to be restored.

THE BROKENNESS OF A HEART

	The Brokenness of our Hearts begins by BROKEN RELATIONSHIP. Every Feeling we Feel in a circumstance, is based upon a preconceived Attitude, Idea or Belief about God, about ourselves, or about others. They all have a Relational aspect to them. Do we FEEL LOVED? Or do we NOT FEEL LOVED? How we respond, or react, to others is fully dependent on whether we are feeling ACCEPTED or REJECTED in our HEARTS at the moment.

	*If we feel Accepted: we feel good feelings- positive feelings: happy, content, at peace, and good about ourselves. 

	*If we feel Rejected: we feel negative feelings - rejected, unloved, unimportant, insignificant, not special, insecure, and not good about ourselves.

	We choose to Believe either the Truth of the Word of God and what God says about us; what God says about our Identity, our Significance, and our Purpose. Or we choose to listen to and Believe the Lies of the Enemy, which have Become part of us, ingrained in our Thinking, from those past, and learned experiences, through Broken relationship.
 
	Every Experience we have plays an important role in what we know, and Believe about God, about ourselves, about others, and about the World around us. We learned Good and Bad, Right and Wrong, through our own personal experiences of Brokenness.
 
	We make Judgments in our HEARTS about the World around us, based on these perceptions. These become our Character, who we are, and part of us within our memories. These become our Belief System; what we believe about God, ourselves, and others and are intricately ingrained in our Thinking.

	Every Emotional response we feel is a learned response. They are automatic to us because we have been Trained in the LAW OF SIN. Every Toxic or Negative mindset, begins with a Toxic or negative Belief. Every Toxic Belief begins with a Toxic memory. These are the Broken places of our hearts, brought by the Brokenness of those around us.

	These are where our Foundational Beliefs begin, within our Families, within our Family Cultures, within our Family Trees, and within our own Childhood experiences. If we are not LOVED perfectly, by those who were supposed to love us, FEAR enters into the Broken places of our heart.

1 John 4:18 (KJV)
18 There is no fear in love. But perfect love casteth out fear, because fear hath torment. He that feareth is not made perfect in love.

1 John 4:16   (KJV)
16 And we have known and believed the love that God hath to us. God is love; and he that dwelleth in love dwelleth in God, and God in him.

	God is Love. God is our Foundation of Love, and God Loves us perfectly. 

John 3:16  (KJV)
“For God so loved the world that he gave his only begotten son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish but have everlasting life.”

	With every Traumatic experience, with every Broken relationship, the Enemy is right there to tempt us to Believe IN OUR HEARTS, we are not Loved, God has Abandoned us, we Deserved it, we should be Rejected. If we choose to Believe these Lies, Agree with these Lies, these Toxic thoughts, they then become Toxic Beliefs, and become the Brokenness of our Hearts. We BELIEVE The Brokenness. We LIVE The Brokenness.

	Our Spiritual Enemy uses Traumatic Events and Broken Relationship to bring Brokenness to our hearts. The Enemy uses these Lies against us, condemning us in our Hearts, condemning us in our minds, to bring Brokenness to our Physical bodies, to our lives, and to all our relationships. We have given Entrance to the Enemy. We have Believed The Brokenness. Brokenness begets Brokenness. 

         God is a God of RESTORATION. When we bring the Brokenness of our hearts to Him, releasing our hurts to our Healer, He will restore the Broken Foundation of Love in our lives we have been searching for.
 
	HE IS that Safe place. HE IS the secure Foundation of Love we have been longing for. HE IS the Healer of our Hearts. He says, I AM and HE IS.

THE HEALING OF A BROKEN HEART

	I know this is difficult, because it was difficult for me to see the Sins, and to look at the Lies I had Believed in my own Heart, and life. I also know Freedom comes with a price, and sometimes that price is painful to look at. 

	To be Set Free from SIN we first must SEE it. We must look at the Brokenness of our hearts. This is how we get Beauty from Ashes. We go to the places of our Heart that have been Burned, Battered, Bruised, and Beaten, and we bring them to God. 

	God is LOVE. God is Love and God is LIFE, and this is what He offers us. The Healing Heart of Heaven breathes His Breath-of-LIFE, into the Brokenness of yours. The Lord convicts us in Love, so we may have Life, and have it more Abundantly. Love holds the greatest power, if only you BELIEVE. God loves us exactly where we are. He wants us to Believe His Love, to receive His Love, and then to Live His Love.

	I had been so hurt in my Heart for so long. There had been so many years of Suffering I had seen and gone through, now were buried deep within my broken and bitter heart, even after a new marriage, that I was still suffering from. I had a lot of “But Gods?” I had to work through with God. BUT GOD WAS RESCUING ME! By showing me THE TRUTH! NOW, I could SEE my Invisible Spiritual Enemy! Now, I could SEE THE TRUTH:

- THE TRUTH is, God was Faithful to me. God never left me. God never rejected me. It was my Heart that turned from His. I was the one who Rejected God.
 
- THE TRUTH is, I had been Deceived and had Believed a lot of Lies.

- THE TRUTH is, I had Unforgiveness in my heart. 

- THE TRUTH is, I was living in Fear, not in Faith, and without Faith it is impossible to please God.
 
Hebrews 11:6 (KJV)
“But without faith it is impossible to please Him: for he that cometh to God must believe that he is, and that he is a rewarder of them that diligently seek him.”
 
- THE TRUTH is, If I wanted to please God, I had to repent of living in a state of constant Fear and Anxiety.
 
- THE TRUTH is, I was walking in Sin. I was walking in Disobedience to God, and His ways, and I had been for a very long time.
 
- THE TRUTH is I was walking in Rebellion. Now, I was walking in Disease, Cancer.

- THE TRUTH is, I was suffering the Consequences of my own Sin.

- THE TRUTH is, I had grieved the Heart of The Father. I had grieved the Heart of Heaven, and so now I was grieved of the SINS in my own Heart. I was filled with remorse. I was filled with Godly sorrow.

2 Corinthians 7:10  (KJV)
For Godly sorrow worketh repentance that leads to salvation not to be repented of, but the sorrow of the world worketh death.

	Through tears, I began to ask God for His Forgiveness. I began to Thank Him, for His Loving-Kindness, and His Mercy in my life, ALL of my life. He had Delivered me out that Desperate place, out of Abuse, and SAVED MY LIFE! And given me A NEW LOVE and A NEW LIFE .

	Now, God was SAVING MY LIFE, AGAIN! This time by showing me the ‘SIN’ within my own Heart, keeping me in Bondage to Brokenness, keeping me in Bondage to Bitterness, keeping me from my Healing. I began to Thank God, and to Praise Him for showing me “His Path of LIFE” in His Word. HIS PATH. HIS LIFE. HIS WORD. HIS HEART.

Psalm 16: 11 (NIV)
“You have made known to me the path of life.” 

I chose to become vulnerable, and to trust THE HEART OF HEAVEN with the Brokenness of mine. I chose to walk in Obedience, and to FORGIVE from my Heart, all who had hurt my heart. I chose to walk in Love.

1 John 4:16  (KJV)
And we have known and believed the love that God hath to us. God is love: and he that dwelleth in love dwelleth in God, and God in him.
 
	I was suffering the consequences of my own Sins of Disobedience. God could not heal me of the Cancer in my body, until I dealt with the Spiritual Heart Issues behind it, first. I repented of the Sinful attitudes of my Heart. If I wanted to walk in right relationship with God, and in the Blessings and Abundance of God, which is HEALING, I needed to get my HEART right with God. 

	THE TRUTH. I was in a Spiritual Battle. It made me sad, and it made me mad. It made me sad to know I was grieving THE HEART OF HEAVEN. It made me MAD AS HELL at Satan! I hated the CANCER in my body, but I HATE Satan more!
 
	I Hate this Evil Spiritual Enemy who WAS, and IS, trying to Steal, to Kill, and to Destroy my life, and more! It gave me A RIGHT TO FIGHT AND WIN my Battle against both my enemies, CANCER and THE DEVIL!

	NOW IT WAS PERSONAL AND I WAS PISSED!!! But better yet, I WAS EMPOWERED! I was Empowered, BY THE KNOWLEDGE OF THE TRUTH!  THE TRUTH that I HAD THE POWER, IN CHRIST, to RECOVER MYSELF from this Disease! The Cancer was not going to defeat me, but I would defeat the Cancer, I COULD CONQUER CANCER! This is my Testimony!

	SEEING there was A Spiritual Root to the Disease, A Bad Root to my Bad Fruit of Cancer, gave me HOPE! As I repented, Restoration happened in my Broken Heart, which brought about the Restoration of my Broken relationships, which brought about the Restoration of my Broken immune system, and my Broken Physical body! This is a Process of DIVINE RESTORATION, through The Process of the Sanctification of the Heart, beginning with the Heart of God, and reaching into yours; Heart to Heart.
 
THE HEART OF HEAVEN

Lamentations 3:37-66 New International Version (NIV)

37 Who can speak and have it happen
    
if the Lord has not decreed it?

38 Is it not from the mouth of the Most High
    
that both calamities and good things come?

39 Why should the living complain
    
when punished for their sins?
40 Let us examine our ways and test them,
    
and let us return to the Lord.

41 Let us lift up our hearts and our hands
    
to God in heaven, and say:

42 “We have sinned and rebelled
    
and you have not forgiven.

43 “You have covered yourself with anger and pursued us;
    
you have slain without pity.

44 You have covered yourself with a cloud
    
so that no prayer can get through.

45 You have made us scum and refuse
    
among the nations.

46 “All our enemies have opened their mouths
    
wide against us.

47 We have suffered terror and pitfalls,
    
ruin and destruction.”

48 Streams of tears flow from my eyes
    
because my people are destroyed.

49 My eyes will flow unceasingly,
    
without relief,

50 until the Lord looks down
    
from heaven and sees.

51 What I see brings grief to my soul
    
because of all the women of my city.

52 Those who were my enemies without cause
    
hunted me like a bird.

53 They tried to end my life in a pit
    
and threw stones at me;

54 the waters closed over my head,
    
and I thought I was about to perish.

55 I called on your name, Lord,
    
from the depths of the pit.

56 You heard my plea: “Do not close your ears
    
to my cry for relief.”

57 You came near when I called you,
    
and you said, “Do not fear.”

58 You, Lord, took up my case;
    
you redeemed my life.

59 Lord, you have seen the wrong done to me.
    
Uphold my cause!

60 You have seen the depth of their vengeance,
    
all their plots against me.

61 Lord, you have heard their insults,
    
all their plots against me—

62 what my enemies whisper and mutter
    
against me all day long.

63 Look at them! Sitting or standing,
    
they mock me in their songs.

64 Pay them back what they deserve, Lord,
    
for what their hands have done.

65 Put a veil over their hearts,
    
and may your curse be on them!

66 Pursue them in anger and destroy them
    
from under the heavens of the Lord.

	God is grieving His Children. “We have sinned and rebelled against you, and you have not forgiven.” I Believe this is God’s Heart for us! The scripture says this: I called on your name, O LORD, from the depths of the pit. You heard my plea: You came near when I called you, and you said, “Do not fear.” O Lord, you took up my case; you redeemed my life. You have seen, O LORD, the wrong done to me. Uphold my cause! You have seen the depth of their vengeance, all their plots against me. O LORD, you have heard their insults. GOD, You have seen their ABUSE!
 
	God has heard their insults. WE have suffered Terror and Pitfalls, Ruin and Destruction. Terror is Fear. It is the Spirit of Fear. A Pitfall is a hidden, or unsuspected Danger or Difficulty, Stress or Crises. Ruin and Destruction is what the devil does! 

John 10:10  (KJV)
The thief cometh not, but for to steal, and to kill, and to destroy: 

	The Terror you have suffered, The Terror I have suffered. The Pitfalls, the Ruin, the Destruction, is from Satan’s Evil kingdom. The evil that has come against us is EVIL! And Vengeance is the LORD’S alone. 

	Of course we have been angry at the injustice that has come against us! But we must release our Anger, our Bitterness, the Hatred of our Hearts, and our Unforgiveness, to God. Let God be God, and let God be Judge. “Pay them back what they deserve, O LORD, for what their hands have done.” AMEN! 

Romans 12:19  (KJV)
Dearly beloved, avenge not yourselves, but rather give place unto wrath: it is written, Vengeance is mine; I will repay, saith the Lord.

	God has seen the wrong done to you and He WILL uphold your cause. He has heard your cries from the pit, whatever that pit has been to you, and God wants to redeem your life! Mine was the Pit of Abuse, Insults and Anger, Hatred and Rage, and Violence that came against me. GOD HATES EVIL but He LOVES HIS CHILDREN.

	God has Redeemed my life; all of my life, even the part I wanted to forget, even the part I was ashamed of. He has Rescued me, Restored me, Remade me, and Redeemed my life, to use ALL OF IT for my Good and for His Glory. The Healing of my Heart. AMEN!

My Beautiful One, Maybe you have been unable to hear the Healing Heart of Heaven? I pray today for your calloused heart. Today, that you will SEE with your eyes, you will HEAR with your ears, you will UNDERSTAND with your Hearts, and you will Turn and BE Healed.
 
	This is all between YOU and GOD. You are not today, who you will Become. Healing begins by walking in Obedience. Healing begins in our Hearts, as a work of Sanctification in our lives. God is a gracious, and merciful God, to us even in the midst of our own Rebellion. But, like me He doesn’t want you to stay there! He loves you enough to teach you THE TRUTH, and to pull you out of your pit! 

	He knows we each are only hurting ourselves, and He is a Loving God, reaching out to every BROKEN place of every one of us, who will hear His Voice, who will hear His Heart, to SAVE US from more Suffering. He Loves you too much to allow you to walk away from Him. He loves you. He died for you. He felt the pain that you feel. He also has OVERCOME.



HEALING BEGINS BY WALKING IN OBEDIENCE	
Believing a lie only leads to death.
This promise of fulfillment is not the promise of life more abundant.
I cannot carry you when you choose to walk on your own,
But I will be there when you turn back to me.
Let me comfort you
And find peace within my arms.
Come into my presence and know my LOVE for you.
I have never left you, even though you feel that I have.
I have seen all your pain and all your tears and I offer you HOPE.
Sin perpetuates sin.
It doesn’t bring the life you so desire.
I am willing to love you enough for your husband
But I cannot work where your heart is closed.
Take a chance and be vulnerable to my LOVE.
Open yourself up to receive from me
And I will pour my love out on you.
Healing begins by walking in obedience.
Trust me with your life.
Trust me with your Broken heart.
I will not let you be crushed and ruined.
You mean too much to me to allow you to walk away from me.
You cannot leave me.
I will always be with you.
I can and am able to take care of you, to meet your need.
I can take care of your husband too.
Feel my love Susan.
I love you.
I died for you.
I felt the pain that you feel.
I also have overcome.  JESUS



Let us pray.

Father, 

	I thank You for Your Healing Heart of LOVE. Father, forgive us for the Rebellion in our Hearts. I thank You that You are Faithful, and True, that You are Holy, Righteous, and Sovereign, even in our Broken Life circumstances, and that You love Your Children. You love Your Sons. You love Your Daughters. You love them enough to teach them THE TRUTH, as You have taught me, Your “Path to Life” so they may be Healed, and made Whole, Spirit, Mind & Body.

	I thank You that THE HEART OF HEAVEN is drawing, and Calling to the Wounded, to the Broken Hearts of your Children. You are saying to them “Do not Fear.” You are saying to them, “I AM Here.” Father, open their eyes that they may SEE, their ears that they may HEAR, their Hearts that they may UNDERSTAND, and turn from their SIN, and BE HEALED right now! 

In the precious name of Jesus Christ of Nazareth. Amen.

Gethsemane


Today was my Gethsemane
The climax of my tragedy
God brought me to that final place
Where I was to accept my fate

I stopped the fight that I’d been in
As I could see I couldn’t win
I chose to finally drop my sword
And give my will back to the Lord

My Battle has been all uphill
As I was fighting for my will
I’d chosen to refuse God’s way
I fought my Battle every day

Depression was my closest friend
I lost my hope and in the end
I planned my exit from this place
I cried to God of my disgrace

And then from Heaven came a Word
And in my Brokenness I heard
God gently, deeply spoke to me
To let me know His Love for me

He showed me that the path I sought
Would not fulfill me as I thought
And if I chose to go astray
He could not carry me that way

He beckoned me to trust again
To open up my Heart to Him
To let His love pour out on me
And He would Heal and comfort me

Sin, He said, is not the way
Healing would come as I’d obey
And after listening to His voice
He let me make my fate’s own choice

And so, through tears, I sacrificed
And gave again, my life to Christ
To trust Him with my suffered pain
That He might lead my life again

To Him I gave my Broken Heart
So I could have a brand new start
And fearfully I set aside
Those dreams I felt I’d been denied

So now, My God, my life is Yours
I set myself back on Your course
My hope and future are in Your hands
I will not fight Your Sovereign plan

I owe my life, my all, to You
Your saving Grace has brought me through
You saved me once again from sin
No greater Love could I be given!

Believe the Beautiful!